||[Feb. 10th, 2008|02:39 am]
All I do is love and care about Edwin. I don't see his mom or brother or friends or ESPECIALLY his dad caring about him as much as I do, yet he listens to them. He told me that they all said that I'm controlling and too bossy with him. Fuck that. I felt uncomfortable enough around his family. Now there's no way I can go to his house. I always had a feeling they didn't like me.|
Last time I went to Edwin's house, it was 11 or 11:30 pm and his dad called him on the intercom from their phones (or w/e it's called) and said that it was too late and I had to leave. He got really upset w/ Edwin and told him I had to leave by 12:00. It was a few minutes after 12 and he called again bitching about how I had to leave... Edwin tried to explain to him that he's old enough to decide how late he stays up. And he always gets his homework done, gets to class on time, goes to work. And his dad just wasn't understand... I really think theres some sort of language barrier because my grandmother doesnt understand some things when i try to explain them to her... but she definitely understands more than edwins entire family. SO, I left and the next day he tried to talk to his dad about how he thinks that he should be able to stay up later and have me stay later, and his dad acted like he had no idea what edwin was talking about. So edwin assumed that it meant that everything was ok. I tried to explain to him that it meant that this problem is going to continue because every night he's going to tell edwin to go to sleep and that i need to leave early, and the next morning he'll pretend he doesn't understand a word edwin says to him when he tries to talk to his dad about it.
So tonight Edwin and I were having a somewhat important conversation while in his room at maybe 1:30 am, and his dad called and told him that I had to leave... at least thats what i thought he said cuz I heard edwin say to his dad "shes leaving now". edwin wouldnt tell me. So I thought fine! I'll leave. And not come back. I hope he's happy. so I went to leave and edwin told me to wait. he said that his dad said that i just couldnt sleep over... so I was thinking, why was he letting me leave? Edwin obviously wanted me to go. So he said to wait so he called his dad. he tried talking to him again like he did the other night to make his dad realize that it was a weekend and he should be able to let me stay late if its saturday!(cuz last time it was a week night). he didnt do much talking. his dad must've been saying a lot because most of the time edwin wasnt saying anything. then edwin got off the phone and had tears in his eyes. I thought he was crying but I wasn't sure because he took out his contacts before so I thought maybe it had something to do with not being able to focus or something. I had no idea. But I felt really bad. whether he was crying or not, I know he was really upset. So I asked him what his dad said and he wouldnt tell me. and he wasn't looking at me either. So I just rubbed his back and head and told him I loved him and waited for him to be ready to tell me what his dad said (cuz I asssumed he would tell me. I tell him EVERYTHING). Finally he looked at me and looked really angry and said something like I need to stop telling him what to do. he implied that i boss him around or something and so I was sure that his dad said something about me telling edwin what to do. I was sooooooooo mad after that. That's the real point I knew I was never going back to his dad's house. so I said "Fuck this. I'm leaving." I tried to go. I really did. I wanted to. I was so pissed I didn't even want to try to work out this problem then (usually we try to work out problems right when they happen). so we talked a little bit and he said his dad and mom and brother and 2 best friends told him that I'm controlling. I asked him if any of them told him to leave me bc of it and he said no but I think thats bullshit. The entire time after he got off the phone I felt so bad for edwin and was trying to comfort him as much as I could, until I learned that the reason why he was upset was because supposedly im controlling. I hate how he listens to what everyone says. His dad told him I'm bossy so all of a sudden hes upset with me because of it. So I left extremely upset. he didn't stop me from leaving or call me or anything. I don't know what to do. I'm sooooooo mad about this whole situation. I need to stay strong and never go to his mom's or dad's house again.
I can't figure out exactly where in the story this happend. it was at some point after the 2 phone calls to his dad. He told me that his dad said I could stay for 1 more hour. he asked me what i wanted to do and I said "I want to stay for another hour, but I'll leave now if that's what you want". and he said "you can leave now if you want to"... so obviously he wanted me to go.
I'm very unhappy because we didnt talk through this problem. I just left and I was upset. I was so concerned about him when he was talking to his dad because I saw his was upset. and it turned out he was upset with me.... for doing shit! I didnt nothing! I didnt tell him to call his fucking dad! I didnt tell him to tell his dad I should stay longer! fuck that. if he sees that i want to stay longer and HE decides to call his dad, then thats his own fault for doing that for me! So I dislike his family. I really really dislike his family. I guess its a mutual feeling.